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My IttyBitty DrunkALog:

I had my First Drink at age 14. Even then 1 was not enough so I had a few beers. As you may well imagine I got the SpinsAndPuked. But hey, I had so much fun that a bit of vomit was a small price to pay. Later on in life I found myself returning to Alcohol more and more frequently and eventually switched to liquor. My drinking was usually excessive and often into oblivion(BlackOut). In my thirties I had become Alcohol's prisoner and was unaware of my predicament(Powerlessness). I drank and I drank even when I did not really want to drink. I had no idea why and I could not stop. I tried going back to beer but all that did was make me PissALot and I couldn't get a decent Buzz. I was a Rum, Vodka and Whiskey kind of guy and proud of it(Insane thinking).










Hello and Welcome to “What Marc Did in AA.


When I became a member of Alcoholics Anonymous I had just been released from treatment. I was dazed, confused and terrified like the deer in the headlights frozen in its tracks. I had many questions which needed answers and was looking for a reasonably sane person to provide me with some reassurance that things would work out and a sense of direction as to how to proceed with this recovery thing. My search brought me into contact with an interesting cast of characters. Some of these people were messed up and some were very messed up. Not much help at all. So, being tired of feeling frustrated and going around in circles I devised a rigorous plan of action to solve the problem and get out of harm’s way.


What I did and Why I did it.


First: I got myself a “BigBook”, a “12&12” and read both of them from cover to cover . We must be fearless and thorough from the very start. I thought there would be a quiz so I made sure I read carefully. My sponsors are Bill W. and “The AA Big Book”. My program of recovery centers on what Bill and others wrote in the early days of AA. I figured this would be a good place to start since it has worked for many before me.


Next:  In the footsteps of our founders, I put my Story on paper. It is to the best of my recollection how things were and my feelings about them. There were several benefits from doing this. It helped me recognize where alcohol had taken over in my life. I saw my powerlessness over it and the unmanageability it created. I also discovered sources of resentments which had kept me drinking and this was a great help for Step Four. Last but not least when I was asked to lead a meeting, I was prepared to do so.


Along with writing my story I have found it helpful to put my thoughts about steps 1, 2, 3 on paper and share these thoughts with other AA members. Also helpful was openly sharing a few portions of My Step Four with the Whole Wide World. There have been moments in my sobriety when I felt bummed because things were not going quite my way but I had a Gratitude List on paper to remind myself that all was not lost and that the situation was not so bad.


 Examples:  1. Thank you Lord that I am sober today and that Alcohol is no longer in control of my life.

                     2. Thank you Lord that I got my money the old fashioned way. “I earned it!”

                     3. Thank you Lord that there always are multiple(Alternative) solutions to problems.


And then: I began building a support group because I somehow knew that to rely on a single person is a foolish and doomed to fail proposition. There are many successful people in AA and I thought it would be a good idea to interact with as many winners as possible. From experience I do know that heaven helps those who help themselves and I hope that these writings are of some help to you.


Good Luck and Pass it on;
05/12/05 Marc Lacroix 02/28/17