Hello and Welcome to “What Marc Did in
When I became a member of Alcoholics Anonymous I had
just been released from treatment. I was dazed, confused and terrified like
the deer in the headlights frozen in its tracks. I had many questions which
needed answers and was looking for a reasonably sane person to provide me
with some reassurance that things would work out and a sense of direction
as to how to proceed with this recovery thing. My search brought me into
contact with an interesting cast of characters. Some of these people were
messed up and some were very messed up. Not much help at all. So, being
tired of feeling frustrated and going around in circles I devised a
rigorous plan of action to solve the problem and get out of harm’s
What I did and Why I did it.
First: I got
myself a “BigBook”, a “12&12” and read both of them from cover to cover . We
must be fearless and thorough from the very start. I thought there would be
a quiz so I made sure I read carefully. My sponsors are Bill W. and
“The AA Big Book”. My program of recovery centers on what Bill
and others wrote in the early days of AA. I figured this would be a good
place to start since it has worked for many before me.
Next: In the footsteps of our founders, I
put my Story on paper. It is to the best of my recollection how
things were and my feelings about them. There were several benefits from
doing this. It helped me recognize where alcohol had taken over in my life.
I saw my powerlessness over it and the unmanageability it created. I also
discovered sources of resentments which had kept me drinking and this was a
great help for Step Four. Last but not least when I was asked to lead a
meeting, I was prepared to do so.
Along with writing my story I have found it helpful to
put my thoughts about steps 1, 2, 3 on paper and share these thoughts with
other AA members. Also helpful was openly sharing a few portions of My Step
Four with the Whole Wide World. There have been moments in my sobriety when
I felt bummed because things were not going quite my way but I had a
Gratitude List on paper to remind myself that all was not lost and that the
situation was not so bad.
Examples: 1. Thank
you Lord that I am sober today and that Alcohol is no longer in control of
2. Thank you Lord that I got my money the old fashioned way.
“I earned it!”
3. Thank you Lord that there always are multiple(Alternative)
solutions to problems.
And then: I
began building a support group because I somehow knew that to rely on a
single person is a foolish and doomed to fail proposition. There are many
successful people in AA and I thought it would be a good idea to interact
with as many winners as possible. From experience I do know that heaven helps
those who help themselves and I hope that these writings are of some help
Good Luck and Pass it on;
05/12/05 Marc Lacroix 02/28/17